Ever feel like you need one of these?
A giant red reset button that you can push when you feel like you just need to start all over?
I need one! Like, pronto. I need to hit the reset button on all things Melissa.
I’ve been so neglectful of my poor little blog. I still take photos, and I’m constantly thinking, “I should write about this” or, “that would make a good blog post”. But I can never seem to bring them to fruition. I am more productive when I write in the morning before work, but I don’t always have time (unless I want to get up at 4:00am!)…and at the end of the day, I’m tired and it’s hard to muster up the motivation to spend another hour in front of the computer. I love writing and I love reading blogs, but I really need to work on my time management.
Also, I wish I could say that I don’t have time to write because I’ve been spending all of my time being active and preparing healthy meals. And while I’ve been gone from the blog, I’ve been recording great losses at my weigh ins.
Not the case.
I’ve really been neglecting my weight loss and fitness goals, too. I’ve been eating for convenience and comfort rather than health. While it does feel great to cross a couple of items off of my to-do list when I run errands on my lunch hour, the perpetual stream of Subway sandwiches (and cookies) and bean burritos has not been so great.
I recorded a gain last week, although I didn’t blog about it obviously. And I recorded another gain this week.
I hate even seeing those words on the computer screen…but it’s the truth and it has to be out there. To be honest about my struggles and to keep myself accountable is why I started this blog in the first place…and I have NOT been accountable lately. Actually, I haven’t been accountable for quite a while. And I know I’ve said this before…I know once every few months—or every few weeks for that matter—I write a post like this. A “wah, wah, wah, I fell off the wagon and ate a bunch of crap and gained weight and I really need to get it together” post…this is why I need to just hit the reset button. When I first started this journey, it felt so easy! I was so determined! And as I lost a couple of pounds each week, the positive reinforcement kept me going. So why does it feel so hard again?
UGH.
My time management and my focus feels so out of control these days. I always feel so busy, and yet at the end of the day I don’t really feel that productive.
Also, to be honest, taking the time to prepare a healthy meal at home and heading to the gym for a workout are amongst the first things to go when I feel crunched for time. I will forego the gym if I can have an extra hour of clearing off my desk and cleaning up at home. I’ll skip cooking dinner for myself if it’s more convenient to grab something to go while I’m out running errands or heading to a meeting. Again, my priorities are totally out of focus. And this needs to stop.
This week is a new week, I have a fridge full of fresh produce for the week, and I really want to get back in the swing of things. So I’ll start here and now.
Please feel free to keep me in check…and share any time management/general life tips you might have!
See you back here later for a report on my latest weigh in…
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I wish I could be helpful, but I just got finished emailing a friend this morning and posting on my blog last night that I just feel burned out.
I am just losing and gaining these same 5 pounds for the last few months (maybe 3 or so???). I am sick and tired of WW, even though for me that’s what works. And I don’t think it’s WW that I am really sick of… it’s the fact that I am STILL at a point in my life that I am having to watch what I eat. And I’m even more disappointed that every time I feel like I have made progress as far as “I don’t eat that way anymore” etc, I get away from any and everything and eat for convenience and comfort, as you said, and realize I am still basically the same old me with the same old habits that apparently die hard or never die and have to be conquered my whole life. It just feels old, mundane, and depressing! I want to be the skinny girl who can eat anything she wants and not gain. Alas, that is not my lot in life. I am the girl who does eat anything…. and gains. Ugh. I feel totally stupid on my blog, always saying “ok, now I’m serious” and then “oops, I messed up again,” repeat, repeat, repeat. UGH. Well, I guess I needed to dump, too! LOL. I do wish I had a reset button. I wish I could get my motivation back. I need to lose 30 more pounds and at this point probably 35 after last week. :-/ I need this to feel exciting and fun and new again so I can be the me I want to be!!!
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Obviously I know exactly how you feel Staci! I guess we will just have to keep plugging away…it’s tough but someone’s got to do it!
Oh girly, I’m right there with you. I don’t know what the deal is lately, but I can’t budge from the zero on the motivation meter. I keep saying this is the week, and then suddenly I’m eating a double cheeseburger on the couch. Don’t even know how that happens. Haha. Yes, I do. I fail to prepare and fail to commit.
But like you, this week really is different! I prepared by actually grocery shopping and filling up the house with healthy options. Now, I just have to get off the couch and actually prepare the meals.
It’s all about preparation! I know when I have healthy options ready to go, I’ll choose them. But if I have to go home and cook a big meal after working all day, the drive-thru always seems more appealing.
Now, the gym…that’s a different story. It’s a big whole fail for me on that.
Nonetheless, advice for you and Staci (above), please don’t fret for falling off the wagon and struggling to get back on. It happens to All. Of. Us. Seriously! And being honest about your struggles on your blogs is helpful, even if you just feel like you’re whining about the same issue again. You’re not. You’re showing people it’s real. That it’s a daily, neverending commitment, and so many people can identify with the on-again, off-again wagon entries. Trust me. It’s nice to know you’re not alone, and that there are others who can help you get back on.
One day at time chickadees. We’ll get there
Thanks for the thoughtful comment Christina! And I love that you said “chickadee”…my mom says that. You don’t hear it much! hee hee!
I agree. Some days are just needing a reset button. Don’t beat yourself up. Make a couple of obtainable goals each day and check them off when you meet them. You don’t have to be perfect every day. Getting a bunch of produce is a great way to get back on track. I don’t do well if I don’t eat enough fruits and veggies. I weighed in the morning last week, but I have to weigh tonight after work today. I’m sure it’s going to be a gain. My mom was in the hospital this week. I tried to make better choices and take my own snacks with me. I didn’t do so well drinking enough water.
Oh, Lisa! I hope your mom is okay! Hang in there!
My mom is out of the hospital and doing very well. Thank you. I gained last night, but am committed to doing better this week. I need to find ways to exercise despite the snow. I love walking outside.
Hi Melissa! I just came across your blog today via twitter. I notice you are back on track this week! If only it were so easy as to have a giant reset button. We all wish we had one at times! What you’ve accomplished so far is incredible. Keep it up!
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Thanks Brigid! If only it were so easy, right?
I guess the bumps in the road are part of the journey! Thank you for stopping by!