Weigh-In Time!!

I know, I know…you’re thinking, “Melissa! It’s not Sunday. Weigh-in day is SUNDAYS.” And you’d be right. BUT…since tomorrow is a holiday, AND more importantly, tomorrow is the day that we move my mom’s entire store from one location to another, I don’t think I’ll have time to weigh-in tomorrow. Thusly, I wanted to get it over with today.

Without further a-do! (adoo? adu? adieu?)

Previous weight: 271.0 pounds

Today’s weight: 266.5 pounds!

Loss this week of 4.5 pounds, total weight loss of 16.5 pounds! WASSUP!!!

I don’t know why I feel it’s necessary to put multiple smiley faces after my weight when I lose, but I guess it’s just to symbolize how happy I felt when I stepped on the scale this morning. I haven’t been 266.5 in quite a while. I got down to 269 once, back in January. That was when I started out weighing about 275, cut out fast food as a New Years resolution, lost about 5 pounds and then totally failed on my resolution and gained back like…well, eventually I gained 14 which got me up to 283 where I started this journey.

I’m feeling very optimistic about weight loss this time around. I’m feeling very resolved. I think that tracking my calories every day on Sparkpeople is a huge part of it. I think that posting my nutrition logs here on the blog is another big part of it. It forces me to take responsibility for what I’m eating. Since I started this I’ve really been making conscious decisions on what I put in my mouth and what I don’t, whereas before I was a vacuum for anything that had sugar or fat in it.

Here is a great example:

On Thursday night, I went to see Twilight Eclipse, as previously mentioned. (Quick review: It was okay. Not my favorite. Not enough abs.) I made a point to eat a salad before going because I didn’t want to be starving at the theater. I had also planned on microwaving some low-cal popcorn and taking it with me. (I know it’s bad to sneak food into the theater, but they don’t sell anything healthy so I can justify it.) Sadly, I lost track of time and S. got to my house to pick me up before I microwaved the popcorn. So, I was going to the movie empty handed and it was going to be a true test of my resolve to stay healthy. Once we got to the theater, S. said she hadn’t eaten yet and we had some time before the movie started so we went into the little cafe in the lobby of the theater and she ordered a crepe. They also had crepes with strawberries and nutella…my hands down favorite, although I didn’t really feel compelled to order one (small victory). We sat and chatted while S. had her crepe, and I found myself fantasizing about chocolate (damn nutella got my mind racing!). “Could I buy a bag of M&Ms at the snack bar and only eat half the bag? At least M&Ms have nutrition facts on the label. Those I could track in my nutrition log. But isn’t a movie-sized bag of M&Ms like 2 regular sized bags? Would it be totally lame if I asked to see the label before I bought them? Would S. start thinking that I am being totally obsessed and neurotic and stage a “lately all you think about is what you’re eating and now you started a blog and I’m FREAKED OUT” intervention?” I offered to share a bag with S. when she said that she was going to get candy. She gave me the “you must be joking, I want my OWN bag” look. In that moment, I decided I didn’t need the candy after all. I didn’t need to share a bag, and I certainly didn’t need my own bag. I’m making a commitment to a lifestyle change, getting healthy and having the body that I’ve always wanted. M&Ms, for the time being, do not fit into that equation. (For the record, S. didn’t get candy either. I was secretly happy that I didn’t have to watch her eat chocolate with one solitary tear rolling down my cheek.)

I can hardly tell you how proud I was of myself in that moment. I sat down in the theater without so much as a Diet Coke and survived just fine. I told S. a funny story about the perv I used to work for, we watched the movie, and she dropped me off at home with nothing more in my stomach than what I left the house with. Now THAT’s progress.

That’s how I KNOW I CAN DO THIS.

And that, my friends, deserves multiple smileys.

That’s it for now! I have a couple days worth of nutrition logs to post, which I may do later today if I get a chance since it won’t be tomorrow. Until then, be good!

xoxo

~Melissa